On occasion, I feel the need to just stop everything and re-energize. I know this sounds pretty crazy, but I get to a place where I just need a moment to gather my thoughts, gather my strength, and gather my heart strings. I have had one of those weeks where things weren't bad, they just weren't great. I really have no complaints, I just haven't really had time to pay attention to the details. The little things are what keep me happy, and I need to take a fresh look.
The problem with this, and here is the crazy part, is that when I stop like this, I realize that very seldom do I get asked what is going on with me. Don't take this the wrong way...I have a great family, and great friends...I just think I allow myself to be the strong one all the time and rarely ask for anything, so it is perfectly normal for those around me to assume that nothing is wrong because I don't speak up. I don't speak up for several reasons (mostly because I choose not to), but also because I know people have alot going on in their lives. I was born to be the "listener" and have no problem listening until the cows come home. I love listening and helping when I can. It is simply who I am. I just forget that on those rare days, and I need to be the one listened to, that I need to say, "Hey! Listen to me!" Of course, I would rather die than to say anything like that, but I can dream. :) Thankfully, I don't have anything to say this time...I just really needed to pay attention to the little things. Makes perfect sense, right? Ha. I know...my mind music is so far out there sometimes...it is even bazaar to me - and I'm the one thinking all this. I can only shake my head and grin.
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